Monday morning came and went with nothing on the job thing, so I’m calling that one closed for now.
Instead of refreshing my email every hour, I set up a small rule last week — two applications every morning before my run, no exceptions, for the next 2 weeks (if you can call it a rule when it’s only 3 days old). Today’s day 3.
So far it’s held. Yesterday I almost skipped because nothing new was posted, so I just resubmitted to a listing from September and called it done. Today there were actually a few up before 9am, so that part went fast.
The hard part isn’t the applying, it’s not checking back on the ones already sent. I opened that old tab again this morning out of habit and just closed it instead.
2 weeks feels doable. I’ll know by the second week whether the rule’s actually doing anything or if I just moved the anxiety somewhere else.