Pulled an old notebook out of the desk drawer this morning while I was looking for a pen that still worked.
Ended up using it to count something I’d been avoiding counting — how many applications I’ve actually sent out since getting laid off. Did it in tally marks instead of opening the spreadsheet, don’t know why that felt easier than scrolling through a file.
37.
That’s more than I expected, honestly. Some weeks felt like I wasn’t doing much of anything, just rewriting the same two paragraphs over and over and staring at the gap on the resume, but the number says otherwise.
The pen basically died halfway through counting! Grabbed a half-full one from the same drawer and just kept going. Small thing, but seeing it written out instead of buried in a file made it feel like actual progress instead of just noise.