Thin, watery light this morning, the kind that doesn’t really wake you up.
Third night shift in a row, clocked out around 7am and the sky was that flat white color, no sun anywhere in it. The skin under my arms is doing that low simmer thing again, not a full flare, just sitting there reminding me it exists. Dropped the steroid down to 4mg this week and my body still hasn’t decided how it feels about that, some hours fine, some hours restless. My sleep’s flipped so many times this month I’ve stopped trying to plan around it.
Didn’t say much to anyone at work today. Kept mostly to myself on break, which is easier than it used to be but also a bit lonelier than I meant it to be. Doodled on the back of a printout, nothing good, just circles inside circles until the ink ran dry.
Everything feels a bit muffled today… not bad, just muffled, like someone turned the volume down on the whole day.