just felt nothing today

got the rejection email today, 6 weeks after I applied, and felt nothing. no crying, no relief, just closed the laptop and picked the yarn back up. I think I used up all my feelings on this one weeks ago, refreshing my inbox every morning befoer I even got out of bed. now there’s just this flat quiet where the disappointment should be. my mom keeps asking if I’m okay and I keep saying yes because it’s technically true, I’m not falling apart, I just don’t feel much of anything right now. anyway, today was just a weird flat kind of day.