Today just drained me in a way I don’t fully have words for.
The commute doesn’t help, long drive each way before the actual work day even starts, and today was one of those days where everyone needed something at once. My inbox already had 40 unread messages by the time I sat down, and I just stared at the screen for a second before opening my laptop.
The itching thing has been tangled up in all of this too honestly, but that’s not really what I want to get into here, more just the feeling of being pulled in every direction before I’ve had coffee, and then a whole drive home to sit with it after.
Got home and stood in the kitchen for a while instead of starting dinner. Didn’t end up baking anything tonight either, the dough’s still sitting in the fridge from yesterday.
Some days the drive is the only quiet part of my day. Today it just felt like more time to sit with everything I didn’t get to.