3 weddings in the next 6 weeks and my brain picked tonight to run laps about it.
Drove home in that usual hour and a half, radio off, and kept replaying the seating chart thing from the first one. Not even my problem to solve, I’m not in the wedding party. Still couldn’t let it go.
Got home and went out back to check on the tomatoes before it got dark. 6 plants this year, more than I’ve ever done. That part actually helped, for maybe 10 minutes. Hands in the dirt, quiet.
Then I came in and it started right back up. What to wear, who I’ll end up making small talk with, whether people will ask why I look tired.
I’m just starting to try and get a handle on the racing thoughts part. Someone mentioned journaling before bed. I sat with a notebook for maybe 5 minutes and just stared at it.
Not looking for the “just breathe” thing, already tried that. How do you actually get your head to stop once it’s going?