gym bag’s been sitting in the trunk for 9 days now. keep telling myself I’ll go before work but the alarm goes off at 5:40 and I just lie there doing math about how tired I’ll be at 9pm if I get up.
tonight I got home and there was laundry from yesterday still in the basket, dishes from this morning still in the sink, and my son needed help with a worksheet he’d been putting off since Monday.
did the worksheet first. dishes after that. laundry’s still there.
I keep thinking once things calm down I’ll get back into some kind of routine, but it’s been like 3 months of “once things calm down.” work’s not slowing down, the commute’s not getting shorter, and some nights I just sit in the car in the driveway for a few minutes before I go in because I need the 5 minutes of nobody needing anything from me.
not looking for a fix, just needed to put it somewhere other than my own head tonight.